Into the unknown darkness of my own soul to find my light.

I can’t say it is easy to disappear from the everyday business of my life, but it is becoming more than essential to go there. No more excuses. And, I am learning, it doesn’t mean getting on an airplane or hiking the Colorado trail or any of the other fantasies I have entertained recently—what it means to me is seeking silence and slowing down—loving myself.

It can be as simple as hanging out in my beautiful office space and laying on the table or meditating, or setting up a tent and camping under the big Colorado starlit skies in the backyard or (my favorite) in a camp ground at Valley View Hot Springs or in Crestone, hiking in the foothills, or trying to record my dreams.

I am a creature of habit for sure. I notice these days when I reach for music, conversations, painting, people to fill in the loneliness or discomfort of the emptiness I might be feeling at some level. It is important for me to understand where I store my pain and sadness, grief and anger. What happens when I can peel back the layers to notice these emotions is that I can feel more compassion for myself knowing that these emotions have served me in some way over the years—and I get to work with them in a more balanced and integrated way for my healing journey.

The dark and unknown within is new and ever changing landscape. I am ready and willing to to bring color in. And, it takes courage to want to change parts of myself. I know how hard that can be and how many tears it can take to do so.

What really is a “retreat”? Perhaps it is the courage to open the door to enter into your own soul.

Join me, as I can hold that space for your own discovery process.